Maybe you'd never understand
This things I'd say to you
But then, I think on the other hand
I might as well say it too

Everybody does feel this way
So I guess, you've felt this too
Admiring a guy is never a no way
Especially when the guy is you

I like the way you carry yourself
So confident yet so humble
The way you smile I think I'll melt
My knees just start to tremble

I think of you most of the day 'till night
Your memories just bring me cheer
But then your thoughts are hard to fight
Disturbs my concentration, I fear

Happy Hearts Day Everyone!

Confusion results when I read something
I can't concentrate on what to do
I really want to put off this feeling
This feeling of admiration towards you

But now I'm having second thoughts
About what I feel towards you
I don't think I admire you anymore
I think I am in love with you

It's been a while since the last time we were together

it has been a month already and I'm missing you dearly

I wonder how you've been lately

If you have time, call me

or just see me...

 

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Malas yata talaga akong tao.  Walang magkagusto sa akin na normal ang pagkatao.  Kundi may kakulangan sa pisikal na kapasidad, kakulangan naman sa pag-iisip at ang masakit pa nun meron ding may kakulangan sa paligo.

Haaay, why can't a normal human appriates my beauty.  Am i only capable of attracting the less fortunate one? hehe, kakainis naman talga oo.  Magkano ba bayad kay cupid at valentines na wala man lang ako makaniig, (nyee mali ata term ko).  Isang normal na tao, okay na sa akin...

Kung gusto kong magrebelde, noon pa sana.  ilang taon ang ipinaubaya ko sa inyo?  Ilang taon pa ba ang kailangan para mapatunayan nyo ang gusto nyo? 

Matagal ko ng gustong umalis at hanapin ang buhay para sa akin. Pero kung may mabigat na dahilan para hindi ko ito magawa, iyon ay kayo.  Dahil alam ko na kailangan nyo ako.  Alam ko na mabigat ang responsibilidad na nakapasan sa balikat ko.  Alam ko na ako ang inaasahan nyo.  Marunong akong makaramdam, hindi ako manhid.  At dahil hindi ako manhid alam ko na masakit ang nababalewala.  Ang pangakuan ng walang hanggang pangako.  Ang mahawakan sa magkabilang balikat sa posibilidad na umusbong ang pakpak para magamit sa paglipad. 

Hindi tumatakbong paatras ang panahon. Hindi ako kailanman nagdamot, ng panahon, talino, pangunawa at lalo na ng pagmamahal.  Pero may panahon na ako man ng nangangailangan ng ganon.

Nakakapagod, nauupos na ako.

 

When you have dedicated your time, youth and your life to one thing and still feel hallow and unhappy in return, will there be enough reason to stay?

I feel exhausted and I'm tired. it seems that I am not much appreciated by people I expect to mock me the least.  I am thinking of doing something offbeat.  Something risky and dangerous.  I want to prove if a saying that goes 'know its worth when its gone" meant well. 

Haaay, i hate this feeling.  It stresses me like I'm trapped in quicksand. 

Drained and Sad.

How time flies so fast, another year had gone.  Its a perfect time to look back on what great things had happened in the past and just forget all the bad.  Let me just detail 10 most rewarding moments of 2006;

1.  I lost weight.  (wow isnt it one true miracle)
2.  I gained confidence (maybe because of no.1)
3.  My faith had gone stronger (rising through every downfall)
4.  Gained new friends (a few but I know they'll remain my friends)
5.  Most memorable birthday (1st time i had it far from home)
6.  I met someone interesting (waiting for results this coming year, hmmm)
7.  A new nephew had arrived (I gave the name Joriz Mikhail, hehe)
8.  Learned a few tricks on html (basically for blogging but still im no expert)
9.  Friends remained loyal and concerned (hope it will be every year)
10.  I had tested one friendship (not serious but rare so I included it here  ) 

I would say that  the passing year hasn't been too kind for me but rather the most challenging so far.  But like a true Filipino, i fought for survival.  And so far I am still here breathing the same air you are having.  Thank God and Friends for their prayers and undying support.  Let me say THANK YOU for a wonderful year I had with you!

So in a few hours, my calender will leap a page again bidding its farewell to 2006.  I never get used to making resolutions for the coming year but I will try to accomplish the following things;

1. Lose more wieght (hehe, obsessed)
2. Be regular at the gym (in relation to no. 1 pa din)
3. Start my driving lessons (sana matuloy na)
4. Get a driver's license (kahit non-pro lang)
5. Take the board exam (hmmm, a little doubtful about this one)
6. Travel  (kahit asia lang)
7. Do my own business (i want to go solo!)
8. Nail Mr. Right (kahit kaliwete siya  )
9. Get married (ang bilis noh, hehe)
10. Get impregnated (got to work hard for this, lucky daw kc to have a baby this year)

and a lot lot more to do in the coming 365 days.  So any suggestions to keep me busy next year?  hehe,

HAVE A HAPPY AND BLESSED NEW YEAR EVERYONE. 

Time is ticking and before we know it it's already Christmas Eve.  Have you finished shopping for gifts? Or maybe the best question is, is there money to spend?  Hehe, this has been the most difficult year for me and the most challenging for the family.  Hard, though we managed to survive.  I for one saw the sun after a heavy downpour.

Still, Christmas will not be Christmas without gift giving.  Even just for the little ones.  I actually lost count of my godchildren.  The last time I know, they were around 20.  Now I don't know how many still exists (or active).  4 days more until the deadline and I have not finished shopping.  Poor kids, but I intend to rush them and compete with time so nothing to worry, Ninang will make ways, hehe. 

No matter how painful the passing year had been, Christmas always brings hope and unexplained joy in my heart. 

I just have a few regret, no one to share the season with and watch the fireworks display on New Year's Eve.  Hayy, can I make an announcement  here.

WANTED BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND: Contract expires Jan 2, 2007.  ANYONE?

Happy Holidays everyone!

Today is the start of Simbang Gabi.  A time to wake up earlier than usual to attend holy mass.  Folks said that completing all the nine days of simbang gabi can grant you a wish. 

I wonder what these people wish for:

   An old lady rushing to the door, in wet hair and perspiring profusely even in a cold weather with two huge bags on her right hand and a shoulder bag on the other side.  A grade school teacher I suppose.

   A young couple by the side door of the chapel holding hands and leaning on each other's shoulder.  Half awake, I guess.

   A not so well off family, mom, dad and two little children.  The younger lad sleeping on his dad's athletic chest while the other kid aged 4 or so wandering around with the mom running back and forth in a game of chase.

    A pretty lass listening attentively to the celebrator all poised and groomed for the morning. I wonder where she has been or heading after the mass.    

   A bachelor in his 30's, looking haggard and dire exhausted.  I am not sure if he is here for the mass or for some quick timeout from a busy route.   

    An elder dressed in checkered uniform wheeling an aged woman. I believe so that they are not related and indeed wishing for two opposite things.   

   There I was observing, as always, unable to reflect on the homily.  Wondering what people are praying for, trying to discern their heart's desire. Maybe All, I guess, wishes for a better life and that even on a sad situation they are going to have a happy Christmas.      

   Never was I able to complete Simbang Gabi, always had an excuse for my absence.  But nonetheless, I believe that God answer's prayers.  He always answers mine and it's always in perfect timing and better than expected.  He is the real Santa Claus giving gifts wrapped in imaginary boxes bearing overwhelming presents that no glittery box can ever contain.    

   Peaceful Christmas to everyone.  Be Blessed always.

 

I met D through a friend from the radio.  He wasn't into it but his friend J was.  J and I were radio buddies.  We would always be in conference calls and enventually J was left out and in the long run ayun naging kami ni D. 

At dahil sa aking lumang kalokohan, pag naguusap kami sa phone ni D, i let him listen to my radio conversations.  Minsan naririnig niya pa kun pano ako makipagbolahan.  Naintriga ang mama, ayun nainggit mag-radio. He had his own set of friends.  We had conflicts, argued more and not little did i know we were already heading different ways. 

One thing I learned from this kalokohan is to take things lightly as they go.  Learn to go with the flow, you'll get pieces of wisdom along the way.  At kung mag b-BF wag taga radio at kung d naman marunong wag turuan at wag mong pag-radiohin, hehehe.... 

Musta na kaya si D, its been 2 yrs na ata since I last saw him, newei I have learned great lessons naman so Goodluck na lang sa kanya...