it was not the first time for me but it was the most difficult I guess.  im just 4 months old here in UAE, just a newbie. No family and no friends.  I suppose I made new pals and new buddies but the old can't be replaced. No one to cry to and no one to go home to when you feel the crowd has rejected you. 

I found a second home here in Abu Dhabi and a second family in the place I stay.  There's genuine concern and pure appreciation in the simple things I do.   I call our place "bahay ni kuya" because as the reality TV show goes, folks get to be evicted or would migrate to other 'flat' in other words.  Else there would be new neighbors.  Fortunately, I have been lucky because all who have moved in or out became my friend.  Aside from joy, the most closest to me is Mommy and Bunso for I spent most of my time here with them.  Speaking of Joy, i missed that stubborn gal. Haay Joy, I wish your doing great in your newly found home and newly found friends.

But where is the conflict?  Conlift starts when you get so used to being with the person you are so comfortable  with and you get to do unusual things simply because you're happy doing it.  Conflict starts when you get the wrong signals. Conflict starts with misunderstanding. You can't just run and cry like a little kid.  Grown ups don't do that instead we face the situation and try to iron out the situation.  But what if your are unware that all the while the joke was on you.  Wow, its too much for a bad trip. 'Sarap manapak' pero mas payapa ang umiyak na lang.  I really felt bad that they belittle my soul.  I never thought the 'He' would misinterpret  everything I did and was doing for him which I do for everyone else.  Masama ba maging sweet?  Masama ba maging maasikaso?  Masama ba maging mabait?  I love being appreciated as am very appreciative of the simple gestures people do to me.  It made me feel  important.  I made me feel  loved.  Damn to what they say 'age gap'.  Di naman yan kinder o grade 1 eh.  Sana hinarap na lang ako at sinabi nya.  Sa totoo lang napahiya ako.  I felt so little the moment I knew the story and hated my self too much.  Nakakahiya talaga. 

7 years.  That’s how big our gap is and as expected I should be the one to get a hold of the situation.  Di ako dapat ang masaktan.  'Demonyo lang ang nag-iisip ng masama' , this just fit well.  Kau na magisip ng dapat nyo isipin.  I know myself and I know where I stand.  If I am being too nice it's only because I am a nice person.  Im easy to love and if you feel in a way that I am liking you, well, I would advice you to be proud.  Why, because you are lucky to be liked by me.  Hehe, cge Melai itayo ang bandera ng kababaihan. 

But seriously speaking, the time you felt I was already liking you, my question is, 'why, is it because you feel  the same way too?  Inakala mo kc eh baka dahil un ang gusto mo mangyari, ang gustuhin kita….